Really missing her!!

Taken April 30, 2009 pure bliss for the girls in bed with Grandma!!

This Picture was taken on April 19, 2009 and it is so hard to see it. She meant so much to me and my family. I wish I would have told her more often how wonderful she was. My girls still think she is going to come over. When I say guess who's coming to play they always say "Grandma Juicy!!" When they see a purse they ask where Grandma is? Autumn knows that grandma is an Angel however she also will say momma grandma's not dead anymore.
I think a lot of the sadness comes when I am with the kids and they do or say something that I know she would just absolutely LOVE. I just cry. I want her to call and say"oh Hi what's goin on?" and I know she never will. Talking to her was like talking to a dear friend she laughed easy she understood what we went through and hours would go by like nothing. She was our foundation and it's gone. I don't think seeing her pictures help me much right now it just makes it harder because I go back to the time and as you can see in this picture she was loving her girls and listening to Austin play her a song on his guitar. This is what she always did and all she wanted to do. I just want to go back to that time so so bad I wish I would have just held still and soaked her all in instead I was probably pulling weeds. I'm so sad and I miss her so much more than I could have ever imagined. So if anyone sees or hears from her tell her to call.
Love, Summer

In Memory of Josie Cox May 19, 2009 3:36 pm

It has been such an honor to have gone through this amazing life with you.
Josie laughed easy and often, she added an exciting buzz to the room that made you want to be there. Josie had friends from all walks of life .
People were always drawn to her and wanted to know her because she always made you feel special.

Josie went on in a very peaceful setting she laid in her daughters bed while her family laid with her holding her hands rubbing her face and sharing all the fun memories. We all held hands with her and Susan said a beautiful prayer. A strong hymn was playing and we could tell the moment was coming she took a shallow breath the clouds came in and turned the sky dark. The songs last word was AMEN and her heart stopped................then the rain. It was such a beautiful time I will never forget.

It was so beautiful to watch Ambra care for her mother she was so gentle and sweet with her she took great joy and pleasure to care for her mom. Ambra took the torch from Josie and fought RELENTLESSLY to get her the new treatment and she still is although now she is caring it for all of us. You have not met a man like Michael he was completely selfless he had Josie in there bed every night so they could sleep with her. He would wake up by alarm to give her her medication. he loved her and had such a high respect for her.

The Love of family is amazing.

Thank you for all the out pouring of love and support for our family this has been a very, very rough road.

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen."
- Elisabeth Kubler-Ross



Josh thank you for sharing all your knowledge and time. You are so courageous and really led us by caring the first grain of sand and showing us the hill.

Dr. Ko you changed us forever thank you!!

We know Josie hand picked Bryce to help carry on her passion and quest for life!!
Pray for him and his family as they are taking Josie's spirit to Germany to get the treatment and help fulfill her lives work for the cure.

"Grama Juicy"

Well a lot has happened since we left the hospital last week. We have all boarded the roller coaster the really old one up at lagoon. When your riding on it you look down at all the 2x4's holding it up and at times its amazing and at times it scares you so bad you don't know if you'll make it.

Josie has good and bad days her strength isn't what it used to be and we are trying coming to terms with this.
As always I still love getting caught up in a long conversation with her which contains laughter and an interesting news topic. She also asks about the kids how the boys are and she wants a word for word on those 3 baby girls that refer to her as "Grama Juicy" !!
We are all forced to live in the moment with her and it is wonderful!!
I know Josie has so many friends that have wanted to come and see her we feel this would be a good time.

Thank you for the prayers and we know God is carrying her now.
Always our best,
Summer

The calm before the Storm

Good Afternoon

Josie is doing a little better physically and a lot better mentally she is no longer trying to change the channel with her cell phone!!!!

She is still at Huntsman and will continue to be until the flood gates open................

Her spirts are good and of course is getting constant comments on how fabulous her nails look!!LOL (If they could only see her when she goes to the grocery store.)

This is a beautiful hospital better than any hotel i have ever stayed in so it is perfect for Josie.

She is still not up for visitors however she has loved reading your comments thank you !!

Well keep you posted and as Josie would say Hugs!

Summer

Whats Happening today

Well we have decided to start this blog because of the overwhelming response from all of the people that love and care about Josie !!( a lot)
(Our kids have started to hide our phones because they have been ringing off the hook!!)

Because of her sudden down turn of health we will be updating this for her (we meaning Ambra or Summer)

Josie has been admitted in to Huntsman Cancer Center HIP, HIP HOORAY!!!!!!
Finally a place that realizes we are not crazy or just unaccepting of the causes of cancer. We now know the cause of her sudden down turn is because of being SEVERELY COMPACTED yes you read it correct. It only took 3 weeks, 5 doctor visits and 5 ER visits. Then we finally came to U of U ER they decided to get a basic Xray of the her abdomen the ER doc said "The size of a small house cat "

Needless to say she will be here a couple days however we are on our way to recovery!!! she is getting more lively as I type.

I will have her check this blog daily so leave messages for her and any questions.(she isn't really talking on the phone much)

Thank you for all the prayers and We will keep you posted on this blog.

Much Love,
Summer